Everyday I wake up, go to the toilet and get something to eat.
I log on and keep eating.
I eat all day while im on the computer.
I eat so much i cannot move.
I eat so much my insides are bursting and my skin is on fire.
So then I take a shit load of laxatives and i cry in pain because they hurt me so much.
And sometimes I am so ill from all the food that i cant move so i have to crap myself.
Then at half 6 my dad gets back.
I go to my room and dream of getting away.
I sleep.
I wake up, knowing today will be the same.
I go to sleep, knowing when i wake up il get fatter.
This is my life, everyday.

Don't judge my ed, and don't judge me.

Don't pretend you understand if you don't.

Don't critiscise what you know nothing about.

Think twice before you call someone "fat".

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Is that a poem?

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No its my life

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Well you obviously know what you're doing wrong, you're eating and you aren't getting any exercise, when you're hungry sometimes if you get a glass of water or something to drink, it can stop making you feel hungry.

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im not hungry

i know it is a compulsion

its quite funny because i had an anorexic/bullimic patch for a few months which has now turned into compulsive eating :s

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Everyday I wake up, go to the toilet and get something to eat.

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I'm sorry that this is the story of your life :(
I know what you go through

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These secrets are walls that keep us alone

I wasn't sure if you knew that or not to see if maybe it'd help out, but I understand with compulsions you pretty much can't help it at all. I wanted to just tell you in case you didn't try switching up your routine a bit. And taking laxatives really doesn't help, it hurts you more. I've taken them and realize that it's just a mental thing, it makes you feel safe that you take them, but when you look at it they don't help you lose much weight. Usually it's only a pound or two. Your body has already taken all the calories and nutrients from the food, and the laxatives just have you get rid of the food after wards.

I hope I didn't offend you that's def not what I'm trying to do.<3